Color by color
Shape by shape
Piece by piece
The moment you realize
Exactly where it fits
Is a feeling unlike any other
What am I?
Color by color
Shape by shape
Piece by piece
The moment you realize
Exactly where it fits
Is a feeling unlike any other
What am I?
The summer before I began high school, my sister discovered she was dying. The doctors told her that she had a rare form of cancer in her kidneys. This is the kind of cancer battle they can’t win, but they fight it anyway. They force kids to go through adult pains and adult treatments, only to find that “Oops! Turns out you’re going to die anyway!” I hate this kind of cancer, the kind that snatches children from their beds and we don’t get a word in edgewise.
Of course, my parents were both in tears when they heard the news. Their scared, desperate hearts were breaking for their seventeen-year-old daughter. They don’t need to be told that “Yes, she is in fact going to die.” They knew as soon as they heard the diagnosis. However they pretend that treatment will cure her for sure, definitely, no matter what.
My sister, Melissa, has always been brave. She was brave when she got stitches in third grade. She was brave when she heard our Uncle Lloyd had passed away. Melissa is brave, and she put on a brave face when she heard the diagnosis. But deep down I know that she was truly scared.
I myself was preoccupied when the rest of family heard the cancer news. While they were worried for Melissa’s life, I was worried about my own. What was I doing you may ask? I was getting beat up by Kenny Thompson.
Cold air
Blinding lights
Itchy costumes
Loud people
Rude people
Headaches.
But…
Tingling air
Bright lights
Gorgeous costumes
Quiet people
Kind people
Excitement.
Peter Pan Jr. is a bipolar experience.
Sitting in a corner it looks
Like I’ve found my quiet little nook
The pages I turn
With each word I learn
It’s a beautiful, magical book.
Excitement fills the air
Words fill the air
Strange noises
New faces
New places
The show is about to begin
Lights.
Camera.
Action.
Music speaks to me when nothing else can. It perks me up when I’m down, it wakes me up when I’m tired, and it fills my soul with warmth. I love music and the way it speaks to me. And now, I’ve gotten to a place where I’m not ashamed. I used to be embarrassed of the music I like. I really only like pop music, which some people find ridiculous. But I love pop music. I love Taylor Swift, The Girl and the Dreamcatcher, Daya, Bea Miller, Alessia Cara, Sabrina Carpenter… The list goes on and on. However, the list of genres does not. And I’m okay with that. I love music, pop music. And that’s that. Music of all kinds is beautiful. It does things nothing else can. It’s not as quiet as a book, not as loud as hanging with friends. But music is my escape. And I find that beautiful in every way.
The magic was tarnished but not destroyed.
The excitement was dampened but not drowned.
My smile faltered but did not fall.
I was weak but I did not break.
It was sucky to be sick, but Florida made up for it.
I miss the sunshine and the
Fun.
Back to school.
School is an elevator
Everyone packed together
With somewhere else we’d rather be
Stuffy, desperate to escape
And then a bell dings
And we are released
A stampede of people
Leave the elevator
In the dust.
Spring= Flowers
Spring= Showers
Spring= End of school
Spring= Swimming pool
Spring= Blue skies
Spring= Late sunrise
But…
Spring= Wet clothes
Spring= Muddy roads
Spring= SOL’s to take
Spring= No more breaks
Spring= Bees that buzz
Spring= Lots of bugs
The strong smell of blossoms.
The pink petals.
The light drizzles.
The sun hiding behind the clouds.
The warm glow on my skin.
The sweet taste of fruit.
Shorts, sneakers,
Soon to be summer,
Sweet scents,
Strong smells…
Spring.