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Think

Beat and Breathe

We all have beating hearts.
Some don’t work as well
Or last as long.
But they pulse.
The pump blood.
The fight to keep us here.

Can you hear it?
The beating of your heart?
The beating of all the hearts in your house?
The beating of all the hearts in your city?
In your country?
On this Earth?

I can.
I can hear it.

I can hear the wind
Rushing by my ear
Biting my cheek
Whipping my hair around me.

I can hear the ocean.
Lulling seashells to sleep,
It plays a melody
As it kisses the sun goodnight.

I can hear the fires
Crackling and popping
Warming the toes
Of little girls and boys
All of different sizes
Different colors
Different cultures.

But all these children
Warmed by fire
Warmed by the sun
Or warmed by the beating of their hearts,
They all breathe.

Some slower than others
Some have to work harder to do it
But the children breathe.
The adults breathe.
We all breathe.

Can you hear it?
Can you hear the sound of your own breath?

Listen.
It’s there.
It’s always there.

So take a second.
Breathe.
Listen.
Think.
Let your heart beat.
Let your head sit still.

We don’t always have to rush.
Sometimes
We just
Need

to breathe.

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Bits and Pieces

It’s Been a Year

I skipped into the new year
Preparing to shine on the court.
And every victory my team earned
Helped my smile grow.

A mock trial
In a real court room
Allowed my desire to become a lawyer
Blossom even more.

And then in March I resisted.
I wrote post cards,
I spoke up,
I spoke out,
I walked out.
And I walked all the way to DC
Where I marched
Alongside my family,
My peers,
And my country.

I sang with my peers on a glorious stage
In an all state choir.
And in that sea of white and black
My radiant smile shined.

The state of Virginia told me
I was ready to get my learner’s permit
And I drove for the first time,
And for many times after that.

I ran my first color run,
A 5K no less!
(And here’s thanks to the kid
Who got blue powder up my nose
Because I sneezed like a Smurf for days.)

Then I spent a summer
Crossing things off my bucket list,
Learning to bake and cook,
And having lazy pool days,
Among other adventures…

And then sophomore year rolled around
And I cut out some toxic friends,
Played some messy Twister,
And played volleyball and basketball
Because when am I not?

I saw football games
And scary movies.
I turned sixteen
And I painted my toenails for homecoming.
I watched the paint peel off,
And it peeled off slowly.

New York City and Broadway called my name;
So did the court.
I made varsity basketball
And as November came and went
I bonded with my teammates
And my friends.

Incredible travel,
Playing the game I love,
Reigniting old friendships,
Finding courage,
Falling down
And getting back up
And brushing myself off.
Daydreaming,
And creating,
And growing.
This is the year I’ve had.

It’s been a good year
And a long year.
But looking at it all
I’d take nothing back.
Not.
One.
Thing.

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Reviews

Brooklyn Nine-Nine

Most police shows are full of drama, murder, and mind-boggling crimes and plot twists. I’m here to say that Brooklyn Nine-Nine does not have any of these things… and it is my favorite police show ever.

The reason that Brooklyn Nine-Nine isn’t a dramatic thriller is because it’s actually a comedy. The show is a mockumentary similar to The Office, but with its own unique spin. I have never been so entranced by such a mind-numbing comedy before, but this show has completely captured my attention and my heart.

Now I call the show mind-numbing because it is generally physical humor (people being clumsy, looking stupid, getting overdramatic with their emotions). The show is also very predictable, but like I mentioned before I’m not watching for plot twists. Instead, I watch this show because of its characters.

The characters on Brooklyn Nine-Nine bring life and humor to my screen. Each character has a distinct personality that keeps me coming back for more. Plus, considering this is a fairly straightforward comedy show, the characters are surprisingly complex. But my favorite part of the show are the relationships. Both friendships and romances are so full of tender moments that combat the show’s usual humor. (There’s also a couple on the show that makes me want to squeal just thinking about them.) 

Overall, despite its tiresome predictability, Brooklyn Nine-Nine is so enticing and endearing that it’s captivated both my heart and the internet’s. In fact, when Fox announced it was canceling the show NBC quickly picked the show up after an internet outrage. And thank goodness they did because this show has made me so happy that I decided to take a break from watching it just to write this review.

(That’s a lie, I’m watching it right now. Why aren’t you????)

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Poems

Full of It

I’m so full of it.

That feeling
That’s a little hard to describe
And a lot harder to name.
That feeling of love
And light
And happiness
And contentment with the world.
That feeling that makes me glow,
That makes me smile constantly,
As I look around
At the luck I’ve had
These past sixteen years.

I appreciate the past
I anticipate the future
And I adore the present.
Because my life is pretty damn good.

So yeah, I’m full of it.

I’m full of joy
At the fact that
This is my life.
I’m full of love
For my friends
And my family
And my world.
It may be small,
But it’s mine,
And I wouldn’t want it to be
Any different.

I’m so full of that feeling
That I’m ready to burst.
But who knows,
That might just be
All the food I ate.

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Bits and Pieces

Yesterday

Yesterday
Luck or fate or whatever
Was not on my side

I forgot
To get something signed
I forgot
An item of clothing
A present for my friend
A water bottle
And tennis shoes

I studied all the wrong things
For my chemistry test
I memorized all my choir music
When I didn’t have to
And for the life of me
I could not focus
In AP World History
Which happens to be the hardest class
In schools
Across the entire planet

I didn’t play
In the volleyball game
When one of my best friends decided to come
And as I sat on the bench
Cheering and shouting
I thought,
“Luck or fate or whatever
Is really not on my side today.”

But

Yesterday
My practice was canceled
And I can now go to a club meeting
That I couldn’t before
Yesterday
I found out that I get to be a lawyer
In an upcoming mock trial
When my coach inspected my grades
She saw that my lowest grade right now
Is a 95%.
I discovered that I’m okay with riding the bench
If we win
(Which we did).

I also discovered
That even if
Luck or fate or whatever
Isn’t on your side,
A bad day
Might be rough around the edges,
But it can still be
Good at its core.

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Kiley's Stories

21 Minutes Chapter 2: Ashley

Here is another small section from my work-in-progress novella, 21 Minutes. I’m so happy you all liked the first part of my story! This chapter begins directly after the end of the last section.

Ashley

The steam from the shower rises around me as water washes me clean of my sweat. I hate morning volleyball practices. I keep my shower short, only two Shawn Mendes songs instead of my usual five. Then I turn off the water, shivering as I wrap my towel firmly around myself. I step out onto the yellow bath mat, avoiding the blue stain in the corner. My heart squeezes as I look at the stain.

“En garde!” I shout, holding my toothbrush out like a sword. My brother giggles, whips his Lightning McQueen toothbrush from his mouth, and turns to face me. Our toothbrushes clash as we battle. Toothpaste foams around his mouth and I laugh.
       Then, I whack his toothbrush out of his hands and it lands on the ground. More specifically, I it lands on the bath mat. He rushes to pick it up, but a sticky blue glob has stained the pale yellow. We look at each other, trying not to laugh.
       “Oops.” I say quietly, and that sets us both off. We laugh until our eyes water. Then, once we’ve both calmed down, we yell out a single word.
       “Moo-oooo-m!”

I change into my clothes quickly, eager to get downstairs and eat breakfast. Mom always makes something delicious on the weekends. As I comb my long, brown hair, I check my outfit in the mirror. I’m going mini golfing today with Hope and Thomas, my two best friends.

Hope’s freckled face swims in the mirror, her blue eyes flashing with excitement. “Thomas is finally gonna ask you out!” she shrieks. I close my eyes. That was over four months ago, and Thomas hasn’t made a single move.

All guys are idiots, but especially football players. I always warn my younger sister Natalie to stay away from the football players at Deep Creek High. They are nothing but trouble. Luckily for her, her crush plays basketball or baseball or something like that. Thomas on the other hand…

The crowd is cheering louder than ever, and the whole student section bouncing up and down like we’re on a trampoline. “Let’s GOOOO THOMAS!”I scream, cupping my hands together. It doesn’t matter; there’s no way he can hear me over the noise of the crowd. It’s 24-20 with less than a minute left. I have a particular investment in this game. Thomas said he’d take me to homecoming tomorrow if we win. He thinks we’d just be going as friends. He also thinks Fantasy Football is the greatest thing on the planet, so what does he know?
       The announcer rambles on in a foreign language, so I just watch the team intensely when…
       “TOUCHDOWN!” The one word I understand roars through the microphone as the bleaches shudder from the weight of jumping fans. I look over at Hope, both of us still screaming. She gives a smile bigger than the entire stadium and I hug her. This is going to be a good Homecoming.

 I sigh. Thomas ended up going with a group of football friends. They acted as a barricade around him, blocking anyone not cool enough from getting to him. I didn’t even get a chance to talk to him.

I give my hair and makeup one last glance, and then I open the door. Cold air hits me as I exit the sauna of a bathroom. I hear fast-paced news anchor talk floating up from the living room. My dad’s concerned voice calls out over the noise of the TV.

“Hey, honey? You should come see this.” I head down the staircase just outside the bathroom door. The whole house smells like Mom’s cooking, and after such a hard practice I’m starved.

I stop just at the bottom of the stairs and crane my neck to see the TV screen. I freeze. The words send a shock through my body, terrorizing my thoughts and stopping my heart. I sit on the step beneath my feet and stare blankly at the ceiling.

Just this morning I was at volleyball practice with my team, who are all my closest friends, running sprints and joking about stupid things. Less than an hour ago I was talking to my best friend about our plans to go mini golfing and whether this year would be the one that Thomas finally asked me out. Just this morning I was a normal teenager.

And now, the world is ending.

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Bits and Pieces

The “reputation” Stadium Tour

Hey there! It seems like it’s been a while since I’ve posted, doesn’t it? It looks like the WordPress app on my phone hasn’t actually been posting the things I’ve been trying to post for the past few weeks. So, be prepared for a stream of new (um… old) posts!

This post is from 1:00 AM this morning, after one of the best nights of my life.

A noisy, sweaty stadium
Awaits eagerly
Talking and laughing and singing
When suddenly
The lights go down
The audience holds its collective breath
No one moves
And then all at once
We all come alive

The music
The lights
It shocks me
And enthralls me
And I can’t look away
It’s so mesmerizing
And loud
And beautiful
And larger than life

And yet
She makes it seem like it’s just her and me
In a room
Talking about life and love and music
It’s not 45,000 people
It’s just her and me

And her smile makes me smile
Her laugh makes me laugh
Because she is my role model
Because she is a performer
Because she is alive and here
In the same space I am
Breathing the same air
And it’s just us

But it isn’t just us
It is 45,000 people
And she’s managed to touch the life
Of every single one of us
And that is a beautiful thing

So as I stand there
Along with the thousands of other fans and friends
I bawl my eyes out
I sing my heart out
And I remember how much music has affected me
How much her music has affected me
And how much fun it is
To scream the words to “Shake it Off”
With 44,999 other human beings

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Poems

Basketball

Hey there! It seems like it’s been a while since I’ve posted, doesn’t it? It looks like the WordPress app on my phone hasn’t actually been posting the things I’ve been trying to post for the past few weeks. So, be prepared for a stream of new (um… old) posts!

This poem is from a basketball tournament I attended two weeks ago, but it still applies.

Sweat drips down my neck

I inhale deeply, my eyes forward

My feet and sides ache

My legs feel like jelly

But for a moment

As the girl bounces the ball at the free throw line

I appreciate the beauty

Of the sport I call my own

I’m so lucky to play

This vibrant, energetic, exhausting, exhilarating game

Called basketball

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Poems

On the Water

Hey there! It seems like it’s been a while since I’ve posted, doesn’t it? It looks like the WordPress app on my phone hasn’t actually been posting the things I’ve been trying to post for the past few weeks. So, be prepared for a stream of new (um… old) posts!

This poem is from last week when I went for a boat ride in Myrtle Beach, SC.

 

On the water

the breeze prickles my face

and fills my nose

with the scents of the sea

On the water

I look out

And watch as towers of green

Overlook the delicate blue

On the water

Murky gloom along the side

Is home to unseen alligators

On the water

The glow of sunlight

Warms my toes

And my soul

On the water

I feel the wind and sun

I see the picturesque clouds above

On the water

I am in love

I am in my element

I am content

I am free

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Kiley's Stories

21 Minutes– A Small Section

Earlier this school year, I wrote a novella entitled 21 Minutes. The novella is a fictional take on one family’s rush to escape impending nuclear war. The family has 21 minutes to get to their safe destination. This story is told from the alternating perspectives of the family’s three children. As the clock ticks down, the story alternates between the present and flashbacks. The family’s history slowly unravels as their time quickly evaporates.

This is a small section from the first chapter. It’s nowhere closed to being fully edited, but I thought I’d shared just a taste to see how it reads to some other brains. 🙂

Mom pulls the bacon from the stove and throws it onto a plate sitting on the counter. A stack of golden brown waffles balances unevenly next to it.

“Hey, honey? You should come see this.” My dad’s gruff voice calls out from the living room. Mom strides over to the door. I stay put for a second, staring at the pile of food. The clock on the microwave above the stove blinks furiously. It’s 8:54. Then, I hear my mother’s voice. “Oh, no.” she says softly. I jump up and walk swiftly into the living room.

Dad is watching ABC 7 News, his arms stretched across the scarlet red couch. The remote dangles from his left hand. His back is to me, but I can tell that he is watching the television in deep concentration. I walk to the left, around the end of the couch, and I collapse next to my dad. His strong arms pull me into a hug, and I can almost go back to sleep. Almost. Instead I turn to face the TV, and I read the bold headline scrolling along the bottom of the screen.

“NORTH KOREAN NUCLEAR MISSLES HAVE BEEN SPOTTED. COULD LAUNCH AT ANY SECOND. DESTINATION UNKNOWN.”

I look in horror upon the flashing screen, not believing what I’m reading. The news anchors are babbling on furiously but my ears are ringing. I screw up my face in concentration and listen.
“Well of course we don’t know where they’re going or when they’re going to be launched but for now let’s assume that these nukes are headed for Washington, D.C.” a tall, dark-haired man with a chiseled face is talking loudly and moving his hands an awful lot. “It will take approximately forty one minutes for the missiles to reach the capital. Now we can’t say for sure what will happen, but we know that the whole city will be affected by the blast, and the wreckage and radiation may creep into Maryland and Virginia.”

The word Maryland stings me like a bee. McHenry, Maryland is on the western edge of the state, close to West Virginia. McHenry, Maryland is on the tip of Deep Creek Lake and home to the Wisp Ski Resort. McHenry, Maryland is my home. And now I may have to leave it.

“Could we get blown up?” Dylan asks from the other couch, as if he was asking what’s for lunch in the cafeteria.

Mom hesitates. She bites her nails nervously like she always does. Dylan and Ashley do it too, but not me. I’ve always hated nail biting. It grosses me out.

“Could we Mom?” echoes Ashley from the staircase behind Dylan. I jump. I didn’t even know she was down here. She looks much more awake than the last time I saw her.

“I don’t know babies.” Mom says slowly. “But maybe we shouldn’t stick around to find out.” She finishes, looking over at her husband. I turn to Dad, expecting him to freak out. But instead he nods solemnly and says, “We need to start packing.”

My jaw drops. This can’t be happening. As my dad jumps to his feet, I look at the grandfather clock hanging above the mantle to my left. It is 8:56.